an ode to the walls

i cried in these walls

lied in these walls

died in these walls

hid in these walls

did things i am no longer proud of in these walls

these walls held me

told me

keep going, keep going, keep going

when all i wanted to do was give up in these walls

watched the full moon rise out of the windows in these walls

slipped my body in and out of other people’s souls in these walls

danced my heart out with my best friend in these walls

thought about ending it all in these walls

decided to keep living in these walls

knew when it was time to say goodbye to these walls

cherished my time in these walls

loved these walls fully

came back to myself in these walls

looked in the mirror on these walls and knew who i was in these walls

then i closed the door on these walls

waved farewell to these walls as i drove away to a new city on the other side of the country to live in new walls

start a new life in new walls

celebrate in new walls

but those walls

those old four walls

i will always remember

as my first four walls

that held me when no one else did

when no one else knew my silent struggles in the walls

those walls

knew it all

and loved me still.

All for now,

All my love,

Onward.

-m